last block in rigth place

2005-04-04 00:23:11

since my msn blog is gone


i think ill just sit here and be grumpy at my self ! =)

no not really ... i violated the rules and now i have to pay
for it LOL .... it sucks but hey its better then nothing !
well my plans for today is simple ..... its monday morning
and the day has just started ! ... i love my friends !

i moved around a bit and i changed my weiw on life completly
most things tends to be bad but i can always turn something
bad in to something good rigth ?


Linus for example ... hes a lousy nasty person that i really
disslike a lot ... and he is a ex...... and thats the reason
he is a ex .... he is way to nasty for me to get along whith
in the long run ... he toys whith peapole and its just not
fair ... but i must admit he is from the past and he
shouldent be able to walk all over me but unfortanly i have
a really soft spot for him .... hey you would have one too
if you spent that amount of time whith a person you really
really like ...


and well i do dislike him but i am not gonna let him take
upp all the space here ...

over to the funeral i was on friday morning/afternoon

i actully meet my aunt (her husband was the one who had
passed away) and her 2 kids (my cousins that i hadent meet
since i was about 6-7) and two of my cousins 5 kids !

so ... i meet
Lisa
Anders/Ewa
Åsa/Sara

my cousins are 35 (Anders) and 37 (Ewa) ....
my cousins kids are 20(Åsa)/18(Sara).....
and the fact is that i had more in common whith my cousins
kids then i had whith their mother Ewa .... it feelt pretty
weird .... and i could more or less relate to Anders due to
him and me living in the same freaking town for atleast 5
years and NOT knowing it .... how weird is that ?

oh well there is pics of them in a hidden dir at my homepage !
and in the same dir you can find me AND my sister on the
same pic´s for the first time in 18 years ! it is schocking
i know .... but its just becouse we dont get along too well ..

and well now that i spent time typing about that i should
prolly mention that the funeral itself was hard to actully
understand .... since i dont know anything on finnish but
the frase "now its time for coffee and cake" so the funeral
itself was a bit odd/weird .... but i guess it was his
request ....i just feelt so out of place that i dident
really know what to do and how to behave i just stood around
and sat around looking supprisingly stupid ....
for almost 3 houers damnit !

it was a nice sunny day tho not a single cloud in the sky
but it was some cold winds at the chapell and the church
well it is the nicest monument they have in oxelösund ! (the
town whith alot of small docks and beaches ! (Salt water
anyone ?? totally great water to swim around in on the
summers... did it a couple of times)

and i am supprised i managed to remeber all this whithout
any help by my beloved post it´s !

~~rant over~~
No lyrics today you fool ! go eat some soup !


2005-04-07 16:33:00

Somewhere over your shoulder


intense up´s and down´s
got me thinking about things ...

*sneaks off singing*

Suicide is Painless
(Theme from M*A*S*H*)

Through early morning fog I see,
Visions of the things to be,
The pains that are withheld for me,
I realize and I can see...

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

I try to find a way to make,
All our little joys relate,
Without that ever-present hate,
But now I know that it's too late, and...

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

The game of life is hard to play,
I'm gonna lose it anyway.
The losing card I'll someday lay,
So this is all I have to say.

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

The only way to win is cheat,
And lay it down before I'm beat,
And to another give my seat,
For that's the only painless feat.

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

The sword of time will pierce our skins.
It doesn't hurt when it begins.
But as it works its way on in,
The pain grows stronger...watch it grin, but...

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

A brave man once requested me,
to answer questions that are key.
Is it to be or not to be?
And I replied 'Oh why ask me?'

That suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

'Cause suicide is painless.
It brings on many changes.
And I can take or leave it if I please.

...And you can do the same thing if you choose.
2005-04-08 15:08:30

Synthpop Music that i DO listnen to !


1980s

* a-ha
* Alphaville
* Bronski Beat
* Camouflage
* Dalida
* Thomas Dolby
* Depeche Mode
* Erasure
* A Flock Of Seagulls
* The Human League
* Howard Jones
* New Musik
* Level 42
* Men Without Hats
* New Order
* Gary Numan
* Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark
* Pet Shop Boys
* Real Life
* Talk Talk
* Telex
* The Units
* Winston Tong
* Yello


1990s and thereafter

* Apoptygma Berzerk
* Assemblage 23
* B! Machine
* Blue October
* Brave New World
* Colony 5
* Covenant
* De/Vision
* Distorted Reality
* Echo Image
* Faith Assembly
* Freezepop
* Glow
* I SATELLITE
* Intuition
* Iris
* Joy Electric
* Ladytron
* Melotron
* Mesh
* Monolithic
* Neuroactive
* Neuropa
* The Echoing Green
* The Faint
* The Nine
* The Postal Service
* Spray
* S.P.O.C.K.
* Umilenie
* Vespin Love Kit
* Voice Industrie
* VNV Nation
* Wave In Head
* Wolfsheim


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and thanks davago for sending me the de lux chocklat from
Belgium !!!!!!!!!! it is sooooooooooooooo good
!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-04-08 21:59:24

just another day passed by


its so hard to express what i really think about things like
for instance today .... i went to the supermarket and stood
in a line and peapole just left the line becouse they must
have beeing scared of me or something .... i promise you i
am not dangerous i was only hungry .... and NO i was not
aming at someones neck .... it must be the black clothes and
the leather coat that got them to run over to the other
counter...

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and camfrog ... thats still a depressing thing .... heres
some stuff i dragged out of my current profile ...
~~~~~~~~

Age 26
Sex Female
Location Other side of the galaxy to the left 19 degrees

Marital status Single
Seeking Anyone
Real Name
Occupation Paragon of Death/Slayer of Nigths
Homepage http://missy.lupinesden.com/

Other Comments

ok here we go whith a list !

1, If you dont know me do not instant message me
2, If your in a relationsship dont waste my time
3, I am not looking for cybersex ..so be gone !
4, I do NOT show ... so dont bother asking
5, I am here for My Friends and THEY know it
~~~~~~~~~~~
And besides that list i am a nice person
Unless you call me a goth....
~~~~~~~~
I speak Swedish/English/Fuckoffish (only when my
hormones are out of whack)
And i love my friends

~~~~~~~

and peapole still dont get it i DO NOT fucking care if your
uber hot and want cybersex.....
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i am happy i made such a good friend on frog tho ...
Evil_Eyes (Luke) hes nice and he relates easily to what kind
of hell i am going through on daily baseis ....
not many persons understands that !


there is so many persons i would like to thank but i really
cant think straigth rigth now .... Shasta thanks for
voloteering to be my future ex husband !


atleast i am in my happy period rigth now