wierd day weird mood

Huselius came over whith some really old stuff ....
2 movies whith me and him and my "extra" brother in ... EVEN whith Peter in them ! and some other dudes and dudettes i dont remember the names off ...

i laufhed my ass off watching them.... i never forget that time period of my life .... and all thanks to huselius really good recordingskills whith a heavy pice of shit equipment that we borrowed from school !

it was nice seeing my lame assed attempts to be funny ...
but what got me down a bit was that peter looked so off reachable ... i cant get the full words for it ... he looked like if he dident really care about anything in the video ... not a single face expression that was happy or smiling...




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it was a lots of fun seeing him even if it was just a 4 mins of video sequence but it does hurt ....
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on to the other movie ...(recorderd 2 years later... since my extra brother that I adopted myself went to a media based program together whith Huselius ) my god what was i thinking...
why in heavens name would i EVER do silly stuff like that infront of a cam .... my god ... i am starting to think that i actully had no sence of what proper behaviours means !
me kissing 2 friends while grabbing their balls !
ethier i lost a screw or a bolt ... seriously ... oh now i remeber i... i was supposed to be sadistic and mean .... it was in the script ! i would NEVER hurt anyone while kissing them !
i still cant belive that i actully DID that to 2 of my friends ...even tho it was in the script and i cant belive that my extra brother actully seemed to enjoy writing that shitty script ... but hey it made me giggle !

i have to get those 2 tapes of 25-30 mins eatch over to mpeg format somehow ... or to avi ... i just dont have the quipment for it yet ....

-- Thank you so much Huselius and Radiant--
you guys sure knows how to brigthen up a day !
(and yes this is going in todays blog on the other place as well)