Me and My Copycatting Sister ..... 

Cool huh ? 

weird girl whith wings ! 

Eye on you ! 

black eyes nice huh ? 

wierd day weird mood

Huselius came over whith some really old stuff ....
2 movies whith me and him and my "extra" brother in ... EVEN whith Peter in them ! and some other dudes and dudettes i dont remember the names off ...

i laufhed my ass off watching them.... i never forget that time period of my life .... and all thanks to huselius really good recordingskills whith a heavy pice of shit equipment that we borrowed from school !

it was nice seeing my lame assed attempts to be funny ...
but what got me down a bit was that peter looked so off reachable ... i cant get the full words for it ... he looked like if he dident really care about anything in the video ... not a single face expression that was happy or smiling...




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it was a lots of fun seeing him even if it was just a 4 mins of video sequence but it does hurt ....
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on to the other movie ...(recorderd 2 years later... since my extra brother that I adopted myself went to a media based program together whith Huselius ) my god what was i thinking...
why in heavens name would i EVER do silly stuff like that infront of a cam .... my god ... i am starting to think that i actully had no sence of what proper behaviours means !
me kissing 2 friends while grabbing their balls !
ethier i lost a screw or a bolt ... seriously ... oh now i remeber i... i was supposed to be sadistic and mean .... it was in the script ! i would NEVER hurt anyone while kissing them !
i still cant belive that i actully DID that to 2 of my friends ...even tho it was in the script and i cant belive that my extra brother actully seemed to enjoy writing that shitty script ... but hey it made me giggle !

i have to get those 2 tapes of 25-30 mins eatch over to mpeg format somehow ... or to avi ... i just dont have the quipment for it yet ....

-- Thank you so much Huselius and Radiant--
you guys sure knows how to brigthen up a day !
(and yes this is going in todays blog on the other place as well)

In The Shadows - Rasmus

(i am currently analyzing this text)


Oh, oh
Oh, oh

No sleep, no sleep until I'm done with finding the answer.
Won't stop, won't stop before I find a cure for this cancer.
Sometimes I feel like going down and so disconnected.
Somehow I know that I'm haunted to be wanted.

[Chorus:]
I've been watching, I've been waiting,
in the shadows, for my time.
I've been searching, I've been living,
for tomorrows, all my life.

(2x)
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
In the Shadows...

They say.. that I must learn to kill before I can feel safe.
But I... I'd rather kill myself than turn into their slave..
Sometimes I feel like I should go and play with the thunder.
Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder.

[chorus]

Lately I've been
Walking, walking in circles.
Watching, waiting for something.
Heal me, touch me,
feel me, come, take me higher...

[chorus]

I've been watching, I've been waiting,
I've been searching, I've been living
for tomorrows.

(2x)
Oh, oh
Oh, oh
In the shadows...

I've been waiting.


(to me this sounds a bit ..... like someone is ethier a goth or a vampire wannabee ... but dont take it wrong it is good tho... i can identify myself whith atleast 90 % of the lyrics....)

dream and happy-b day whishes !

Last nigths dream was so intense i had to switch sheets in my bed .......


me and a stranger* meet up .... and we had a pillowfigth and then a food figth .... and we got roufh and dirty ..... so we jumped in to the bathtub ... and i more or less told him to get started ... so he shaved me .... and after he was done whith that .... he licked and sucked and was all over me ....and i was all over him doing the same ... in the bathtub ... then when i got close to my first orgasm ... thats when i told him to come get me .... and so he did .... and it was so good that i woke up moaning loudly and whith wet sheets....

it was intense i tell ya !

hes not really a stranger at all ... hes kinda young but hey hes over 22 and bellow 30....

the ironic part in this is that this guy and me never get along irl ... we more or less disslike eatchother to the degree that we would end up killing eatchother if we had to be in the same adpartment or room more then 5 mins ....

and yes .... Happy-B day ! (not my b-day but like 8 million others b-day and atleast 2 of my friends was born today)

//Missy Whizzy Pissy Dizzy ! whith a streak of hornyness and hangover !

Movies i rented !

the most recent ones are in the top of this list.... and yeah they fucked my planning up by sending me 2 discs that are like .... 80 dvd´s too fucking early ....
just so you know if your in sweden DO NOT RENT movies from BOXMAN they will SCREW your list up .... i had this planned so i could see it in chronological order ..... and they STILL managed to screw it up for me...

Star Trek - Deep Space Nine - seasong 3 - Disc 7
Star Trek - Deep Space Nine - seasong 3 - Disc 6
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 2 disc 3
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 2 disc 1
Dead or Alive 3 - Final
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 2 disc 2
The Twilight Samurai
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 8
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 7
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 6
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 5
Evil Alien Conquerors
Maria Beatty Fetischfilmer volyme 1 : The Black Glove & The Elegant Spanking
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 4
Demonlover
Darkness Falls
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 3
The A-Team - Seasong 1 - Disc 5
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 2
The A-Team - Seasong 1 - Disc 4
The A-Team - Seasong 1 - Disc 2
Maria Beatty Fetischfilmer - Volyme 2
Star Trek: The Original Series - Seasong 1: disc 1
Oh what a party !
The A-Team - Seasong 1 - Disc 3
The A-Team - Seasong 1 - Disc 1
Scooby-Doo 2: Monsters on the loose
Gladiatress
Ghosts of Mars
Stephen King's Golden Years
Confessions of a Dangerous Mind
The Hole
Bones
Dreamscape
Mean Girls
The Anarchist Cookbook
Rock n Roll High School
Lost Souls
Rai - caveboy 2
Prince of Darkness
Philadelphia Experimentet
Rai - Caveboy 1
Virtuosity
Betty Page - Bondage Queen
Dead or Alive
Dead or Alive 2 - Birds
Creepschool - year 2
Creepschool - year 1
Macross
The city whith living dead
Dragonfly
Demons
The Revenge house
The Haunted Mansion - ghosthouse !
Wishcraft
28 Days Later
Doctor Sleep
Final Fantasy
Heavy Metal 2000
The Breed
Harry Potter (the third movie)
Full house
Zombie Flesh Eaters
Vampire Hunters
Cradle 2 the Grave
Heavy Metal
Final Fantasy
Superfamily - Orange Road
Gen-Y Cops
Taken - Disc 5
Time Machine
The Wicked Force Of Evil
Moulin Rouge
Taken - Disc 4
Ring 2
Taken - Disc 3
Volcano High
How you dump a guy in 10 days !
Taken - Disc 2
Taken - Disc 1
My big Fat Greek Wedding
Young Poisoners Handbook
Wrong Turn
Balatack part 2
The 10 th Kingdom - part 3
Balatack part 1
Ice Planet
Portrait of a Vampire
The Visitor
The Lost Empire
X - Men The Ledgend about Wolverine
Ripper- Letter from hell
The Serpent and the Rainbow
The 10 th Kingdom - part 2
Tank Girl
Hollywood Homicide
Tigermask
The 10 th Kingdom - part 1
Voodoo Ritual
Transylvania 6-5000
Innocents
Warnings
Roughnecks - the figth of Hydora
Roughnecks - the figth of Pluto
Roughnecks - the figth of Homeplanet!
Snow Queen
The Asylum
Schoolday of the Dead
Uptown Girls
Dracula 2004
Dagon
Thir13en Ghosts
Teenage Caveman
Rose Red
Progeny
They Live
Saint Sinner
John Carpenter's Vampires 2
John Carpenter's Vampires
Stephen Kings Köplust
Legally Blonde 2
Legenden om djävulshuset
Legally blonde
Marci X
Darkwolf
666-The Number Of The Beast
Alien Hunter
Dracula 2001
Dragon Fighter
Everyone loves Mickey Mouse
The 4th Floor
Altered Species
Cube 2 - Hypercube
Stargate - Directors Cut
The Sin Eater

A strong female Does it on her own !

I have a mind As hard Steel ... i take what i want and do as i please

ill do anything for those i love and like and respect BUT they better not walk over me becouse i am extremly cruel and have a extreme long memory and i can hold a grudge for a very very long time
sure i can forgive easily but i will never forget ...

Those who are my beloved friends and those i love on so many levels knows it. they are few but very carefully selected . they are the onlyones who do know who i truely am and they also know the reason why i am writing this in a public blog ...

sharp intellect, roufhed up spirits, unconventional characters,pure creativity geniouses, morbid humor´s survivors, lusting and loving bloodstreems, happy to be alive and horny whith no changs in hell tags around their necks, large flowers wallpaper, true smile bumps, friends who calls in the middle of the nigth, risen brains, confused, tierd, horny, wanting the exact same thing as i do !

i simply love them all no matter how they act or behave becouse there all a part of me and my friends ... i mean ... you could probobly use one or two of those word if you tryed to describe me ...

if you knew me that is ...