2004-11-24 20:47:59

Great Day.... no not really ...

shit why do i always do the same misstakes over and over 
and over ... 

tryed to make some new friends but then i scared them away 
by telling them things they prolly never imagined that a 26 
year old girl would have done/survived...
i walked through hell for 10 years of my life and not until 
now i feel ok whith it as my past.


ehither im just plain stupid or i need a better incarnation 
next time..  this shape and body already gave up ... only 
thing thats struggeling now is my messy mind ... and i 
think a lot about everything ... and im serious .... 
probobly too serious for my own good and thats what scares 
peapole away from me

i dont joke around im serious 24/7  and some peapole seems 
to think that ethier its intimidating or that im insane or 
have no sence of humor ... well there freaking bloody rigth 
about that ... i HAVE no sence of humor...


i will now stop have feelings for my own good since 
feelings for another person is just a illusion or a state 
of mind .. and thats too much to ask of me at this point.. 
ill just go out fuck around and be myself ... 


Screw YOU !!
and no lyrics today ...