Angel of Death

yesterday i ran past my angel of death .... but his name isent walter .... but he looks like arucard ... witch confuses me....
he looks like hes getting better .... i love his hair... i always been a sucker for hair ... long natural brownish black whith some highligths of ligth creme brown...

i dont think he has a clue i was so close to him .
i am sneaky that way...i am the one hideing in the shadows when he needs me ... he just go in to the shadows of his dreams and finds me... as well as i go in to the shadows of my dreams to hide and wait for him to find me.

you cant know what i look like if you havent seen a pic of me for the last 9-10 years .... i changed a bit and so did he but i still reqognised his voice and the way he moves. so cute and smells so nice.


god what i wouldent do for just a hour whith him ... smell his hair and sit there and braid it and just be whith him talking about nothing and everything like we used to do on the phone for hours and hours ....

i hate to admit it but i did have a crush on him at that time. but noone of us acted on it becouse i where depressed at that time and so was he ....and i still regret it .... that i let it dissapear in to thin air.

he and me always used to joke about the fact that we both would get our graves side by side .... he was sick and so was i .... so im very happy to know hes still alive .... he prolly thinks i passed on ... since i havent spoken to him in years. i will break the silence soon . i really need him back in my life .
even if its just as a friend again ... that dosent really matter ... i just want him to be around .